insomnia

Supposed to be happy and enjoying myself cos it's my last day today at the boutique and I'll be flying off to bangkok on wednesday morning. When I come back from my holiday, I'll start to have my training... Then start to bear a target and do my best to perform well.

So... I should be happy right? Spending my last few days, hours or even minutes tgt happily with you. But why does this happen? I refuse to admit I'm in the wrong, I refuse to speak.

There goes again, my freaking bad habit...

Yes, yes my bad if you wanna put it in your way.

You gave in too much to me, you always apologize even when you're not in the wrong, you'll always hug me and say, "okay baby, it's my fault okay? let's not quarrel anymore..." You'll always make sure I'm comfortable in my bed, cover the blanket for me, make sure the door is closed, lights are off before you leave.

I know I'm taking things for granted. I'm selfish.

I only want you for myself.

When I'm viewing pictures of female bloggers, you can't see it, not even a glance.

Why have I become like this?

What has become of me?

I'm sucha bad-tempered, attitude bitch.

What have I done to deserve all the good from you? You are so stupid to do all this. I'm just an immature bitch. I don't even give you a chance to be angry with me when you ARE supposed to be. :(

I don't know what to say. Can we forget what happened tonight? I'll just stop twittering already, I'll delete the application in my phone. No more twitter for me. Tmr is a new day...

Thanks for sending me to and fetch from work, and also your cashcard's balance's running low. All because of the peak hours' ERP. When I get my pay, please let me top up $20 for you every month. :)

Thanks for the company on my every lunch hour. :)

Time to sleep sleep already, got plans tmr!!! :D

first day of work

Boo boo! Work isn't as hard as I thought, colleagues aren't as unfriendly as I thought, things aren't as hard as I thought. Everything was not as scary as I thought! I JUST THINK TOO MUCH! :D

I'm really excited to learn and understand more about the products. But I can't serve any customers yet, until I'm being trained and confirmed as a permanent staff. Strict eh? Hmm, understandable lah. Who'd want those newbies and beginners to serve and then spoil the good reputation? Haha.

Basically, I'll be the observer in the boutique, learn as much as I can just by looking. Haha, and also do the cleaning, must be spic and span. Not even a small little dirt must be seen! That's a challenge to me cos I seldom do any house chores. Hahaha. :x I'm sure I'll be gaining more and more relevant experiences each and everyday. Looking forward to the future with shu, hope I can stay there for long term! :D

Anyhow, I hate the lights there, totally shine out all the flaws on the skin. Ewww, ugly and look dehydrated lor! I think I have to pour more foundation on my face already for more coverage. :x I saw the magic of the cream foundation when one of the colleagues used it.

O. M. G was the word in my head. I was thoroughly amazed by the cream foundation. Its coverage is damn good and successfully smoothen out the whole skin! Now I'm so tempted to get it. Oh no, shit shit shit!

Haha, excited for tomorrow night's clubbing! I miss powerhouse so much! And DJ Kzeeeeee also ah. He looks so like a brown teddy bear. :x PHPHPHPHPHPHPH! WAIT FOR ME TMR KAY, I'M GONNA ROCK YOU! :P

last day of freedom?

I've repeated this so many times, that I'm very very nervous about first day of work tmr!!! To be exact, it's actually later on! I gotta wake up at around 730am? And report for work at 930am! Omgosh omgosh! CALM DOWN CALM DOWN CP!!!

Seriously, I'm not too sure what's the main thing that I'm worried/scared about. Cause I really treat this very seriously? I'm afraid of losing it? Well, don't worry too much. Just gonna do my usual blogging and go to sleep asap. :)

Alright, I'll definitely miss blogging after I start to work AGAIN. Yea, no time for myself already, don't think will have the extra time for blog either. But still hope I'll be able to write something here once a while to keep my friends updated a little. :D

My goal for now, is to get stable at shu uemura. DON'T GET SACKED OR WHAT! Work as long as I can, gain as much experience as I can, and most importantly, save as much as I can. :) The good and bright future of mine is in my hands! I want to settle down as young as possible, don't wanna be an old mama who's got generation gap with her kids! :D

Okeey dokey, here's a more proper update...

Today, which is like, my last day of freedom? Haha, so hjf and I both makes it a point that we shall go dating in case we have very little chance after I start work.

Ah ha! We went to do something we always LOVE to again. Kiaping soft toys at arcade! HAHA! Went over to PS's arcade tot try our luck. Quite a number of choices there and mostly were sooo cute! And you know there'll be those mega huge sized ones at a corner which seldom attracts people? Cos everyone would most probably think it's a mission impossible MISSION. Haha...

Then our backside itchy, took about 3 tries... Really like impossible leh. :( But he's so persistent, that he wanna catch it and he thinks that there;s a chance if we don't give up.

Eventually, we went to exchange another $10 of tokens...

Eh... I think the quote, "NEVER DAY DIE." is quite true? COS WE GOT THE MEGA SOFT TOY!!! I was super surprised and elated over it. Keep smiling and smiling like thissss :D

And when I wanted to share a picture of it at twitter, it kept failing and failing. Fucking frustrated, tried twitpic also cannot. Please go eat shit lah, I think there's something wrong with my phone cos I can see other people uberpic-ing and not me! :( $&#*(!$*&#!@ CHICKEN NEH NEH POK!

Anyway, here's some pictures of it, it's uber cute and huge and I wanna hug it to sleep everynight! ^^









Looks small in the pictures without any comparison but actually its head is like 3 times of mine? HAHA!



Can see? Hahaha...

Wanted to catch a movie but... Short of cash. :x Actually it's only one-sided thinking of mine, I thought we'll be catching a movie but no. Hmmm.

I'm getting too tired to type already ehhh...

Just see the pictures okay. :D









Just look at the scar on his left cheek. Big right? Looks like an injury or a fall. IT'S JUST A PIMPLE SCAR LOR! But why so big and humongous? Itchy hand go squeeze then become like that lor.

I think it's almost a size of a 10 cent coin. Hahaha! :x Never squeeze it out man. Not only does it produce the disgusting liquid thingy but also leaves an ugly scar. Ewwwww!!! Lesson taught already? :P

Kua kua kua... And he kept trying to hide it but can never run away from my shot! :D Being a girl is still the best, at least girls can use a concealer and cover up for the time being until it heals but guys have to live with it, seeing it all the time when he looks in the mirror. Hahaha. :x

More peekies...















When will we have a proper date again? Can we really save up? Can we really last this relationship? Time will answer all my questions eventually. :D

How I wish you could skip army so we can save up faster and earn for money for our account... Let's do this together yea? Stay strong always, never give up!

Nevertheless, I do love you a lot a lot and you know it. :)

Oh oh... And more peekies. Took too much today, just have to throw the whole chunk here. :D





















May this love last forever. Everyday is a V.day with you around. <3

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Sigh, I can't smile properly forever... Without getting a braces. It's really very ugly and such a turn off. Why I have such crooked teeth?! All my family members doesn't have and it's only me!!! Always having a damn big problem smiling and laughing out loud. Maybe that's also the reason why I'm speaking quite soft, because I don't really dare to open my mouth too big, thus the soft voice. :(

I'm really looking forward to putting it, I must get it if not I'll just frown over all my photos when I see my own ugly shit smile. :( Hopefully, by this year end? Gonna cost a bomb to my pocket again... Sigh.

Whatever it is, wishing myself good luck for work later. Goodnss, already past 130am! Gotta run to lala land! Nights and sweet dreams to myself. CP, you can do it. :)

some random stuffs to share!

being as boliao as usual at home, i took some pictures. just wanna test the camera and as a result, it's not so bad eh. :D

you've seen the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th and 6th little cuites that he caught for me. ever wondered which one's the first? it's...



a CJ7!!! it look ugly in the picture here though. this picture doesn't do justice to it! haha, it's much cuter in real life.

hmm, if i remember correctly, it was way back in 2008 when we first got together. our first movie we watched tgt was CJ7! and few weeks later he caught in from some random machine which i forget where it is. i never thought that i had the chance to play the catching-toy machine with my bf, someone who i love. :D

AND! i thought it'll never happen again. who knows? now he promised to catch one for me every month! how can not happy?! well, he's fulfiling it and i can see the effort. hope he won't stop or break the promise. :x

and... my hamsters! manage to take a few pictures of them! i can feel they're living in their own world, much happier than before? haha. they're more tamed as well! i'm so glad. :D when they first came in, i have a hard time catching them. i was very gentle to them but i always can't grab them. lols.! but everything improved now. happy happy!

let me introduce mico first!



BOO!!!



who's that!!!



caught you, mico! munching on its fav food. :D



hello i'm mico. my owner just recently figure out i'm a female! i love to run on the wheel and exercise a lot. basically, i'm very small sized actually. but after my owner separate me and marco, i've been living in a smaller tank. i have no space to run about and hence, i became fatter!



hey, don't blame me, i'm actually a fast runner but all the good food here is so tempting! my owner even fed us with her dog's dry food(biscuit)! tasty tasty yum yum...

AND NEXT! it's marco...



hello? yes? you called me?



i love to eat and bite things! i don't run on the wheel, it's so tiring. i'll rather chew on something else than exercising...




i reckon my owner prefers me to mico because... you can see, she's feeding me! and i'm living in the bigger cage, i have everything here in the cage. water, food, wheel, 2 storey cage, bathing sand.







and she always prefer to play with me rather than mico. i don't know why?! i think maybe it's because mico killed parco, that's why she favour me more... hehe. oh, there's once when i was put in a paper box. i was very active at night and i kept biting on the corner of the paper box. bite and bite... and the hole eventually got bigger! i crawl out of the box... and poof! i dropped into a sports shoe.

i stayed inside the show for around 2 days, hoping my owner would find me and she did! so happy to be back in my cage. :D





and of cos, i'm definitely cuter and lovable than mico! see, i have more pictures taken than mico. hehehe...

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LOL! people who are boliao a home everyday will do such things. acting like a hamster talking. hahaha! i think they're both so photogenic! they look cuter and rounder in pictures leh! feel like squeezing them!!! :D

wanna owe hamsters too? they are so easy to care for and i actually prefer those which are less active, not those breeds like robroskis(?) which can run very fast. what for you get a hamster when you can't even catch and play with it right?

haha. winter whites are the cutest to meee. :D